Saturday, January 9, 2010

The Diva Dropped!!!

-3.2 lbs that is!! I had my weigh in today...which I was very very late for, but I had a weight loss!! It has been three weeks of weight gain, and this loss feels soooooo good!! Unfortunately how did I celebrate? With a 2 item combo of chinese food...Orange Chicken, Salt and Pepper Fish, white rice and vegetables. Boo!! Fail!! I dunno, I tell myself that Saturday is my "Free Day," the day that I get to eat something that isn't the best for me, but that I have been really really craving. I don't know how healthy that is, but for now, while I am making this transition into living a healthier life, it works. Well...Kinda.

So, back to celebrating! The Chinese food meal is eaten, and that's where the reward ends. I am staring down those last few pounds in the 400's and I really really want out. Saying goodbye to the 400's is my first small goal, and I only have 6.2 lbs to go before I can say, "Adios"!! My focus this week will be on Journaling my food intake. I have a "D" average in food Journaling, and I know how much it would aid in my weight loss if I could just get to that food journal everyday and write it down. Let me tell you...I used to be so good at journaling. I was a food journal Nazi! Seriously, nothing could get past these lips without being written down in that food journal. I don't know why it is so hard this time. I just have to do it, and I know that I can. Food Journaling was even the topic of the meeting today, so it looks like we are all on the same page!! I am going to be as diligent as I can be with journaling this week, and not beat myself up if I am not perfect, and see what happens. Well, I gotta run...one of my good friends is having a show tonight, and if I don't start getting ready I am going to get left!! Smooches! (more to come).

Friday, January 8, 2010

NKOTB

No, not the boy band...its me... the "New Kid On The Blog"!! I remember hearing about this new thing (years ago) called the "Blog" and remember thinking to myself...what an unusual word....it's so Onomatopoeia(ish) sounding. To be honest the word sounds a little like vomiting to me hahaha, but moving along. It wasn't until recently that I really gained interest and discovered this whole world of blogs and bloggers. I love it!! How amazing is it to connect with so many people from all over the world that you would have otherwise never met?

So here I am. "Operation DivaDrop"!!! Yeah, its a weird name (you don't want to know how long it took me to think of a name), but, it works. I am on a journey to "Drop" 228 lbs to regain my life and health!! Just admitting that I need to lose 200+ lbs blows my mind. I can not even wrap my head around the fact that I have the equivalent of a couple of people to lose off of this one body!! I am scared, frustrated, annoyed, and Mad As Hell that I let myself and health get this out of control. I am done messing around!! I have spent my entire...ENTIRE life thus far letting my weight control almost every aspect of my being. I want out of this Prison! I want to live... I want to be the woman that God has given me visions of... Confident, Graceful, Brilliant, Poised, Talented, Fearless, Beautiful inside and out. I guess more importantly I want to learn to see myself through Gods eyes.

I have tried many weight loss programs over many many years, but what seemed to really work for me was Weight Watchers. On my first go at Weight Watchers I lost 95 pounds, but slowly over the course of 7 yrs I gained all of the weight back and it brought 20 more of its friends along with it. So, on October 24, 2009 I joined Weight Watchers Again, and have lost 7.4 lbs in a long, very long 11 weeks, and over the course of three weeks I gained 3.6 lbs. Boo!! I have to work very hard not to be disappointed in myself for only losing 7.4 lbs in such a long period of time, but this is a Lifestyle and not a Diet. I am determined to keep going, and with the help of my friends and family I am going to win this battle, and am looking forward to learning more about myself...my True ME along the way!!

Tomorrow is my big weigh in!! Yay!! Wish me luck!!


Height: 5'11

Weight: 408.4

(inches...to be continued)